Too many humans humming for attention and attempted affection ..
- One is silent because she’s said too much and chooses to not be shoved on the shelve anymore, put there for rainy days and slow summers..
- One too loud because silence has been her fortress till realistic scenarios appeared and a block said “Be Loud❗, Be Heard❗, Do not be afraid to be Heard..”
We are misread because we choose to let certain people see our real selves, which is actually smart👓. We choose to be closed books because reality is…, not everyone deserves to read all the chapters of your life (so far).. we don’t want everyone to see us naked but we want to be seen as unwrapped souls to the world..Now which one do you choose to be?
Are you tired of screaming in silence or are you tired of literally screaming?
I’m just self aware and self assured👑 .. I do not feel the NEED to get a boyfriend ( as sad and lonely, maybe pathetic as it may sound) .. of course I WANT one ..😍
But how is that gonna help me grow if sexual interest is all we have for each other.. I want emotional , physical, mental stability from a Boyfriend .. I want a person who knows what they want because I sure as hell know what I’m looking for.. regardless of the life setbacks one might have .. The great feeling of having a partner in crime, lust and love is what I want… a Best friend, a Brother and a certified psychologist (I tend to get crazy.. hence why I have a blog people 😁👀❗) …
So come knowingly ..
- Wanting to know someone means more than undressing them to see flesh, but undressing their souls..
- It means more than barring yourself in them, but diving in a sea with them..
- Wanting to know someone is to not know their moans but their moulded minds..
- To crave their deepest fears, thoughts and wishes plus desires ..
To feel more than a hand caress me is worth waiting for…
Pressing onto myself too many times a day, asking and wondering if i’m enough for a certain someone or something life has to give.. Pressure based on pestering pasts and gripping grims of baggage.. 😫
Well, I guess one can’t have it all.. you can’t have secured feelings if you’re not insured.. you can’t move on from the past and look forward for the present if ashes follow with every move..
An uninterrupted emotion of empty promises and lies gathered in grounds of old corps..
Having no breathe because of too many things lost, giving too much as a result of a virus of self hate..
Separate yourself from spread lies you wrap yourself in..
Demand alone time and dwel amongst things that are beneficial..
- TO KNOW YOUR WORTH IS TO KNOW HOW INTANGIBLE YOU ARE..
We seldom give ourselves praises , set great expectations for ourselves but trust in unreliable availability from people whom we are uncertain of.. Just because it’s happening now doesn’t give you the legitimate reason to settle for it..
Self recognition should be your ultimate goal ‼‼
Trust yourself enough to not relay on another’s flight to take you places (“He makes me feel good” / “without him I have nothing” / “He’s my world”) but your own.. Stay in your lane and see how rapturous independence is, how wonderful it is to know your own wonder ..
A guys statement about you should not shake you (You’re beautiful), it should not give you a sense of appreciation ( You’re so different, I like it) .. In fact it should give you a reason to question why he says it.. Is it because he thinks you don’t know about all this? Is he trying to see the validity in your knowledge of your self awareness? Is he only trying to build your confidence? Does he care?
It’s too much, I KNOW , but sometimes over thinking is the best element to elaborate things.
Have your own perspectives prevail in such events..
You don’t need a man’s approval for existence.. If you think you’re invisible then no visible proof shall surface about yourself.. But if you think you’re a queen , nobody’s presence or doings will make you question your destination..
The ability to allow yourself to roam freely, not thinking about the next or the ex but your very own destination..
Being as clear as crystal about your perspectives, your talents and your wants..
Being the only flower in your garden not thinking about the 100 shades of indifferences you have but how unique they make you..
Baby girl? Pierce through this world, make it your own if you will.. Never let them belittle your black self nor your golden heart…
Fighting to be better but with what crutch? When your own heart disobeys you and wonders for help.. You know you’re stronger than any situation thrown at you but your mental state tells you “you can’t do this alone”.. Needing a shoulder to cry on doesn’t necessarily mean opening the flood gates of your sorrows but merely baring your loud soul on a silent plater.. Don’t allow your heart break to cripple you, your disappointed heart destroy you, yet let it mend you, allow it to build the renewed and empowered you..
To you who’s been rejected, they never had you, let them go..To you who was told to “never do this again” , don’t stop till you’ve had enough ..
To you who fills the pillow with tears, they don’t deserve your soul.
To you who got left in the cold because of imperfections, you’re perfectly fine..
With flaws so unbearable ,they had to dismiss you, for intimidation is eliminated with anger but brought up by concern.. Remember that you are an imperfect reflection of greatness..